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LOOK AT THE MANATEE SMOOSH ICON AND FEEL BETTER.

Dammit, I don't know what to say. Well, there isn't really anything I could say to make it feel better. But I've been praying for Ginger and wishing the best for you. Of course saying "I'm sorry" doesn't really help. I hate knowing there is nothing I can do or say to make you feel better. Bit I will be here if you need me for anything at all.

Dammit, I've wondered for so long what you would do after Ginger passed and I'm not ready to find out. I never will be. Gerat, now I'M crying.

Not that my opinion really matters here, but I'd put her down. She is obviously suffering terribly, and that comment about possibly waking up to her dead gave me horrid feeling I've never had before and hope to never have again. I know there is nothing I can do or say to make you feel better, and I hate myself for that, but I'll be here for you no matter what. Oh, and mom said you can come over to our house any time you want or need to.

And if you can't get anyone on the phone just call like a maniac and I'll throw a shit fit if anyone doesn't get it or doesn't let me know you've called.

It's amazing how shit can go down hill for everyone in one hour. Except for Andrea, she's getting a Boxer puppy on Friday; lucky bastard.

Dad's secretary is quitting tomorrow and the one he was going to hire to take her place called not too long ago and bitched him out saying that her office space was "too small". Dude, the fucking office space she's gonna get (or not) is bigger than my damn room; and my room is very spacey.

I go e-mailed not too long ago about a gift that dad and me ordered for mom online; and of course it was bad news: The credit card was declined and he has three days to call before the order is withdrawn. I like it how they waited several days before e-mailing us. And the reason, most likely, that there isn't any money on the card is because my grandpa is a greedy fuck who has all of dads credit card info and takes money from him. Damn fatass. He has his own damn money, why is he taking dads? I won't explain the details of that, it's all too damn complicated.

And other stuff I honestly don't feel like typing out. Hopefully things will get better SOON.

Mom and I had a long talk about the lizard eggs. We're pretty positive that only two are fertile, and probably won't make it. We're constantly reminding ourselves that many animals don't have a healthy batch of babies on the first go-a-around... We're doing what we can for them and hoping that if they are not ment to live that the eggs will show as nonfertile in a week. We'd rather it be that then the wee ones be born dead. Errg, so many mixed emotions. Even poor Selkie knows that the chances of life are slim. She's currently laying on the eggs in the bed I set up for them. I took the cover off so she could see them; instead she crawled on top and let her soft stomach rest on them. It's pretty obvious she's upset. I'll be buying supplies to make a homemade incubator after xmas in case she decides to have babies again in her life time. But it is good for any female animal to have a baby, or babies, during their life time. I remember we adopted a female dog that got fixed before she could have puppies; she would always take my stuffed animals and put them in her bed. Poor thing was often depressed.

Eh, just keeping hopes down so dissappointment doesn't smack us in the face. Urg, me and mom are so damn emotional it's stupid. We both wanted them to have itty bitty's some day, JUST NOT NOW.

Oh, and for those who are wondering why no one knew that Selkie was pregnant it's because she showed only ONE sign of being a mommy; she ate and got fat. And that started to happen after I got their new bulb that was supposed to enhance activity and appitite. So she was fat anyway. But dammit I feel like a dumbass for not seeing it sooner. I'M SORRY DAMMIT I'M SO BIPOLAR RIGHT NOW.






On a better note I HAD A DAMN GOOD TIME WITH ANDREA YESTERDAY. Yay for crappy Disney sequals and behind the scenes clips of Silent Hill! -hugs for Andrea- She makes me very happy! ...and takes stupid video clips of me with her cell phone... You stupid mexican, get off of my couch.